Just so full of self loathing

Got to thinking today about how awful my life is...(it's actually been a very re-occurring thought) I pout about how I have to live at home, how horrible corona is, how I am stuck with all this time,and I'm starting to have these weird night heart palpitations that are starting to freak me out.

The point I've come to is that i am so ungrateful. I don't need to point out to anyone the positives that i obviously missed when i was complaining about my convenient perfect life.

I want...i need to be more aware of the pain others have. I need to stop focusing on me and my "woes" and really get over myself and be a blessing to others.

Forgive me Father for I have sinned.

Friends

This is inspired by my two man friends Cory Johnson and David Sittig. They have always looked out for me and protected me from shady characters. I am so grateful for friends like them.

Wooden boy

I decided im going to start telling the stories of my art

pieces. Starting with this guy.

I did this piece on a wooden oval block I got from Michael's. He's my little Pinocchio. With his sweet face he can look you straight in the eye and lie to you. With his arms crossed he wont open up. His fiction is better then reality, reality has consequences.

I think we can all relate. In our own ways we hide from things. Whether it be confrontations, our emotions, collection agencies, the fear of failure there's this stubborn little boy who just seems to proud to admit he might actually need help.

My make believe house

I couldn't find a kitchen or a living room i loved enough....

This would be my Wes Anderson room (and by that I mean he would live there)

Focus or something like it

Awkward jessica

Over the years i've prided myself in not having cried in front of very many people and it seems that in the last year it's all caught up to me. Not only have i cried in front of lovely friends of mine but i've cried in public...the park, fridays,flame broiler etc. Not only have i cried in front of friends in public places but they've been primarily guy friends and i can only imagine the server thinking "o great he's breaking up with her and i have to serve them while she loses it."

In the end all my man friends i've cried in front of have been gracious, loving and full of comfort. So for that thank you amazing man friends.

quality time

My dad and i both have a passion for God and His great creation. It's nice to spend sometime and have a heart to heart with the wisest man i know .