Just so full of self loathing

Got to thinking today about how awful my life is...(it's actually been a very re-occurring thought) I pout about how I have to live at home, how horrible corona is, how I am stuck with all this time,and I'm starting to have these weird night heart palpitations that are starting to freak me out.

The point I've come to is that i am so ungrateful. I don't need to point out to anyone the positives that i obviously missed when i was complaining about my convenient perfect life.

I want...i need to be more aware of the pain others have. I need to stop focusing on me and my "woes" and really get over myself and be a blessing to others.

Forgive me Father for I have sinned.